I first crashed with ME in the year 2000. I didn't get a diagnosis at that
time.
From the symptoms that I had read in books from the library it was quite
clear that it was ME.
I am a recovering alcoholic/drug addict, when I came into recovery in
1995 I noticed that I was getting very tired, very quickly. Then, one day, I
began to feel dizzy and feint.
A passer by noticed I was near to collapse and ministered first aid and
got me back to the rehab. I thought nothing more of it but did carry sweet
things just in case it would happen again.
During my time at the rehab I had a Hep B inoculation as I worked in a
hostel for street people. I became very ill shortly after with what was a
reaction to the injection.
In 2000 I came down with a heavy flu virus and not long after I crashed
with ME.
After 6 months or so I was able (after careful management) to be more and
more active, taking rest and eating good quality food. During the period of
2000 to 2005 , I met and married my wife.
Slowly over that time I began to notice a gradual onset of symptoms,
getting very tired very quickly, recovering slowly after plenty of rest,
brain fog and light/sound sensitivity and mixing up my words also memory
loss and not being able to find the right word.
During this time I began to experience a number of annoying illnesses, I
had migraine type headaches which nothing would shift, I began to get pains
around my heart which began to miss beats which was very frightening.
In 2005 we sold our house to enable us buy a new house. With all the
stresses and strains of buying/selling a property and the packing I fell ill
with a flu like illness and by the third day I was in agony in bed and
unable to walk because of the pains in my muscles and joints. My head felt
like it was ready to explode. My speech was slurred and I was incredibly
weepy, crying for what seemed to be no reason. I felt frightened and
frustrated at being so ill. I had to remain in a darkened room in bed for
nearly three months.
Slowly with the aid of a walker and wheelchair I began to be able to get
about the house and spending very short periods out in the garden. I did,
however, lose my job as a chef and had to give up on all my ministries at
church - I was involved with running the mini bus, music group, church
committee, old peoples luncheon group and choir. My marriage has also
suffered greatly as a result of ME, sometimes getting very close to divorce
as my wife at first found it difficult to accept that I had ME despite my GP
confirming the diagnosis.
To date I still have severe pain in my muscles and joints and constant
blinding headaches, insomnia, speech and word-finding difficulties, anxiety
and depression accompanied by suicidal thoughts. My wife and I have almost
constant rows as a result of the strain this horrible illness puts on us.
Thankfully I do have an understanding GP and the internet forum groups have
been a huge support for me and my wife.
Sadly though in my area (N. Wales UK) there is hardly any NHS support or
help. I was assessed for one ME clinic but they said I was too disabled and
that there were other issues that needed to be worked on. They also said
that because I was confined to a wheelchair they thought that would be too
upsetting for the other members of their group.